I felt I have to say it.
And I did.
It made you cry.
It broke my heart.
I said I need to go somewhere
I need to take the journey.
You asked me if I really need to.
I said I do.
It wasn’t easy for me to tell you that
But I felt that I have to.
You might find it hard to believe but
I need to do it because I love you.
As I open the door, you asked me once again
Do I really have to go – I guess so
Looks like it.
I don’t know.
I might make you cry
for days while I’m away
But I was thinking it would save you
from a lifetime of crying deep inside
Right now, I need to find the answers
To a question I have always avoided
Will it will forever be the same?
Will i choose you – no matter what?
Will I choose you – even if life is at its worse
Will I choose you – even if home is broken
Will I choose you – even if the sun has set and the night has come
Will I choose you – no matter what
Will it really not matter if life is mostly down
Will love really keep us alive
Will your heart go on for me even if mine has turned cold
Will I choose you – no matter what
Will watercolors work to paint grey skies with rainbows
Will flowers really bloom in the coldest winters
Will love find a way to kiss away every tear
Will I choose you – no matter what
Before I went off, you asked me
“When you reach the cross roads
And you see the sun shining on the other side
What road will you take?
Will I look back and see if the door is still open
Or will I keep my face straight and move ahead
Will I shed a tear or will I smile with delight
Will I choose you still – no matter what
I know for sure the journey’s cold
The road is damp and crooked
There are dangers and steep curves
No wonder it’s a road less travelled
Looking forward, when the days come
I will find the answers I’m looking for
I don’t know if the road home is still the same
I don’t know if the door is still open
When the day comes and you finally walk down the isle
With all the smiles in the world for you
Will it be me waiting by the altar?
Or will I be standing by the door wishing it was me holding you?
I don’t know how to end this note
Much more how to ease your pain
Let me stop it right here and ask
Will I choose you – no matter what?
